WHAT PART OF “OBEY” DO YOU NOT UNDERSTAND?

“How are you feeing?” I asked, even though I could tell by the look on her face she wasn’t feeling her best. I hugged her and sat down and we had a mini-conversation. During our talk we briefly discussed her “situation”, but I left knowing that it shouldn’t end there. I needed to pray with her. I know I did, but I didn’t heed the voice inside telling me to. No way to sugarcoat it, I was disobedient.

The worship service began and during the service I heard it once again “Pray for her”, yet I allowed fear to overtake me. I did not move. Once again my obedience was M.I.A. Finally the service ended, but the “feeling” did not leave me. I knew there was something that God was telling me to do. I could not leave without doing my part. My role was to simply “obey”.  Why didn’t I get it? Why couldn’t I do it? I did something at that moment. I got up, walked over to her and said I need to pray with you. I spoke the words God told me to speak earlier. I prayed over her and with her. I declared victory over her situation. I stood in the gap with her. Something in her and me broke. It was what she needed. It was what I needed.

I recognize it for what it is. My issue was and is an issue of obedience…. **sigh**

You see sometimes I doubt what I hear and question what I know God is telling me to do.

So I do nothing.

That’s disobedience.

Sometimes I do or say those things that I know He has told me not to do, not to say. 

That’s disobedience.

There are even times when I hear His voice telling me to do something and I try and rationalize it. I wait. I don’t move when He tells me to. My obedience is delayed.

That is disobedience.

It’s funny when I think about it, I do the very same things that I get frustrated with my children about. How is my being disobedient to God different from them disobeying me? It isn’t, really. Just like I demand that they obey me, God demands that I obey Him. To the extent that I obey, He can and will continue to use me. I want Him to be able to use me as He needs, to serve His people. I am determined to do better. I missed it today, because I didn’t obey immediately when He spoke to me. I have repented. I will continue to press in. 

Complete and total obedience is what He desires from all of us. That's my goal! What about you? Be encouraged today.

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~ Now if you obey me fully and keep my covenant, then out of all nations you will be my treasured possession. Although the whole earth is mine, Exodus 19:5

~ If ye love me, keep my commandments. John 14:15